This is for the best guy that I ever had. The guy that I love so, so much.
I told you that this would be my last letter to you. I promised I’d cry over you, one last time, tonight. We had an agreement, to let each other go. To let destiny decide to whom we would end up, in the right time, with the right person. Where everything would finally be okay, that we both would be happy. ;’)
As I’m trying to fathom my thoughts, I am fighting my tears. My sweaty palms are just starting to do it’s best. Hahaha. I just couldn’t believe that the one I’ve written out the most would also end up as a subtopic in my writings. You have always inspired me to become a better person, Jade. You were one of the reasons that I looked through each and every day.Remember all of these? The letters you sent, the things you always gave me to feel much loved when we get into series of fights. Funny how we still ended up those days saying ‘iloveyous’ and stayed stronger together. How I wished those moments lasted forever. ☺
I’m proud of what we’ve been through, Jade. After all the pain, hurts, joy, love, evrything. YOU WERE THE BEST THAT I HAD, AND THE BEST THAT I EVER WILL. You made my heart so happy. I won’t ever stop bragging about the love we had. The guy who didn’t want to make me feel unwanted, the guy who stayed with me during the times I broke apart and the person who healed my scars despite the circumstance.
You were the first guy I have ever loved this much. You know that. We spent each day with oozing affection that everyone wanted. I wanted our relationship so much. It was my ideal relationship. You were my ideal guy. What we had was not close to perfection but it was worth it. But what made it special? Because I was with you. I faced every struggle with your hand holding mine. Just with the thought of you being there, staring at me, I was brave enough to have it all, with you.
Being with you, Jade, was something I never asked for yet it was something I needed. You came in a perfect time, you showed me love at the times I needed the most. Hahaha. At first I thought you were just a simple guy from a random school, but when I saw you with that extra ordinary humor that made everyone laugh, it was such a turn on. Hahaha. You made my days so much brighter. There wasn’t a day that I felt alone because I had you in my life.
Everything started with the simplest things. Calling me ‘mok’ or ‘baby eyebugs’. So unfair that I only teased you ‘palaka’. Hahaha. Then, as time went by it became much sweeter, ‘mahal’, ‘baby’,’babe’. Well, that’s what happens when love comes in, right? ;)
I remember everything all too well, jade. I even posted a list of important dates that happened between us. :”“> Everyday, was. But those days were one of the best days of my entire life. You always loved me in way that I didn’t even know how. You accepted my flaws, insecurities. You still understand me at my cranky times. I pushed you away but you always hugged me to know that you won’t give up on me.
You always took a part of me, baby. You were a part of me. You will always be. ;) I’dlike to thank you for all the memories you’ve given me, everything that we shared and secrets we had. Hahaha. Thankyou for letting me love you this much. Thank you for making me happy. Thank you for the love. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.
Too bad things had to be this way. But,true love means letting go. This isn’t the time for us. I’m sorry for what I’ve caused you, Jade. I know I scarred a bit of you after through everything. The damage I had done. =((( God knows how sorry I am and I didn’t meant things to happen this wa. Especially to your family who have been treating me good. Please let them know. ;”) You were always a man for me, a man who had protected me all this time. =))))
Hope someday you will find the one you’re looking for, the one who will treat you right and love you more. Someday we’ll both see the love we are destined to be and whenever that time comes, I hope to seeyou happy.
I hope you liked your choices for being with me for 2 months, 2 weeks and 5 days. From the day I said ‘yes’ and the day we parted. I love you, Jade Patrick Embodo Oclarino!! :”“”) I’ve been so blessed to have you.
Ps: Don’t be bitter on me, okay? :(
My letter ends here. I love you, mahal. :) I’ll always be here. You know that. Mwaps! :* See youuuu :)
Isa ito dun sa mga letters na natanggap ko mula kay en. Yang mga pictures jan sa taas, ako gumawa niyan haha. Ang bait ko haha.